When did I last write? I have lost the momentum, I guess. Heh..
L studied for a test...
His mind went blank during the test...
He scribbled whatever that came to his mind, making his scripts looked more like scraps of rough papers...
当时，他的内心一定很慌 …
His tutor (T) commented about him, in front of his whole class during a tutorial lesson, almost immediately after the test : L what happen to you? You merely submitted some rough papers.
T 一定是在想：你到底在搞什么鬼？？！！
I am quite sure T’s tone wasn’t too harsh. Still, the comment must have hurt L more.
无意的伤害也是伤害...
T hesitated to probe further when he noticed that L seemed to be feeling very bad. L actually tried to explain, but no words came out of his mouth, only some simple random hand-gestures almost implying “I also don’t know why”. He must have felt horrible, stressed out and very reproachful of himself because of his poor performance.
T can only generally tell the entire class to continue to work hard. L was then left alone... and the intended lesson continued...
But…
That night, L thought of calling T to explain (although T never demanded an explanation), but he cut off the line just during the first ring, leaving no missed-call-message on T’s phone.
L then requested his mother to call T to explain on his behalf instead...
请你帮我跟老师解释…
But while he was making the request, he broke down and cried, only making his parents more worried...
His parents observed that he also behaved strangely thereafter and pulled him off from college for the next two days, and also to seek medical attention.
T can’t help but ask himself : Did I trigger it? Mm...
T really misses the usual smile on L's face ...
I always wish these *little pals will study very hard. So it’s kind of weird for me to say, “Please don’t study that hard…”
But that’s my conclusion in such context. Mm...
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We have to be on our way.
But it's dangerous to be on the wrong way.
1 comment:
Sometimes, we just "lose ourselves" in the midst of pursuing our goals..
Yes, it's dangerous to be on the wrong way. Yet many times, we only realise that we are on the wrong way towards the end.. And the sad thing also is, people around us only receive the signal towards the end..
From L's perspective at the moment (after finding out that nothing comes out from his hard work), it can rather frustrating and i guess he is looking for some prompts for his next step..
Hmm, everything shall be fine in the end and i hope Mr/Ms T is fine as well.. :) *Smiles*
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