This Time, Learning From Her ...

She did something not quite right, affecting not just me, but some other people as well.
I decided to let her know her wrongness.
I was rather firm and looked at her sternly.
You know how cold my stare can be.
She felt cornered and expressed her uneasiness through her tears.
She was crying audibly.
I wasn't sure she accepted her wrongness as she was hitting me repeatedly with her soft hands.
She must be also protesting that I was too harsh on her.
It must be out of her wildest imagination that I can be that stern towards her.
My stare did not leave her, but certainly softened.
It took quite a while for her to stabilize her emotional upheaval.
When I left, I can tell she hadn't forgiven me for my harshness towards her.
She must have expected me to accept her, all her wrongness included.
I wondered how long the cool-off period would be.

The next day, we met again.
I wasn't sure how I should react to her.
Should I receive her warmly as usual? What if she had decided to ignore me?
My concern was so unnecessary.
She initiated a warm wave at me with her hands, smiling so innocently as usual.
She even extended her hand to receive mine and led me.
She did not forget the event happened the day before certainly, for she showed me an evidence that the "mischief" was "undone".
When it was time to leave, she even requested me to stay. But I really got to go.

She actually forgave me so completely, so easily.
She didn't even mention how harsh I was to her the day before.

I am actually learning from her.
How the little me, cannot "let go" as easily as her. When such event had passed, I still felt a tinge of awkwardness for sometime, albeit I know I will eventually "let go", while she can face it so bravely and freely within such a short span of time.

Has ageing does me bad? Haha..

Before I end, I should clarify. She is just a three-year-old girl, a daughter of a close pal of mine.

在红尘翻滚，自身不晓得沾染了多少，而变得不如以往的单纯。
当初赤子心怀，如今还否存在？

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有一位圣者这么说：

过你自己的生活，
并留一点空间给别人，
这样你的人生就更完美了。
所以，要培德，
有德才有福份。
还要『留余』，
留给别人一些余地，
也等于给自己种了一些德。